yamanai ame da neeee

Saturday, December 26, 2009

everyone likes to be told that they are important, and that they are needed.
but some like it more than others.
and different people will like it for different reasons.

i think maintaining a healthy need for approval is very crucial to success in life.
crave too much, you win but you don't.
does that make sense?
its like that quote, you've won the battle but you've lost the war.

8:54 PM

grandparents.
Saturday, December 12, 2009

so, what i've been dreading has finally come.
i know people all die one day, but death is so alarming. so disarming.
when i see him on the hospital bed, he looks so small.. so vulnerable..
what happened to the man who used to wheel me around in the market trolley? who gave me spelling, who read me hong lou meng when i felt bored? who argued with me heatedly?
who told a 12 year old girl that he believes she can make it, even when the whole world thought otherwise?
theres nothing i can do about the fact that he is suffering. does he want to pass on? does he want to stay? does it help if we knew?
when death comes, everyone becomes helpless.

many things we're doing now is more for us and not for him. why?
i just want him to stop suffering. that will be.. the saddest thing and at the same time the happiest thing that can happen now.

ah gong, i hope you know that no matter what we are there for you. and i want to let you know that you are not alone in this. death comes to everyone whether early or late in life. you've had 4 children, 7 grandchildren.
you will be survived by us.

11:37 PM

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

tomorrow is my last paper!!!!!!!!! *fireworks*
once again, exams reveal to me human nature. my own and those of others.
who steps on others to go ahead? who chooses to underestimate? who still thinks they are in any way more important than others? its interesting. who will care? who won't take time to?

i'm glad to say that my psych friends are not ppl who turn on others. im so fortunate to have them as study partners cause i've suffered in sem 1 from studying alone. and i think because of them i will do better this sem. i must say, people in uni (age? experience? peer influence?) tend to handle stress better. no tempers, no break downs... we just laugh and talk more. which is good, i like :)

anw, don't know if dear friends are still reading this but this is my dec schedule
7-8 - datuk
16-18 - lata
28-30 - ophir

i'm not gna be very free.. other then the date i'll be gone theres the days we have to spend doing briefing, packing stores, and washing tents..

k gna go do a last round of stats. bye

1:24 AM